Your 2025 Holiday Peptalk

2025 is almost over. Winter holidays have arrived. My Yule decorations are up, my house is full of leftover turkey, and my playlist is going strong.

I am so glad to see this year go. It’s taken so much from me. I promise I won’t belabor this too much. It’s a downer for me, too. But most of my year was spent caring for the Darling Husband after a horrible stroke. He’s getting better now, but he still requires care throughout the day. My long-term critique job ended because the site folded. We had to move out of my dream apartment and are sharing a house with roommates for the first time in my life. And as if that all wasn’t enough, our beloved cat Harper died.

I don’t say all this to make anyone feel sorry for me. God knows life could be a lot worse. I say it all to let you know where I’m coming from. So when I say I’ll be spending the rest of the year doing whatever is needed to boost my holiday vibe, you’ll understand why.

If you see me on social media appearing way too cheesy and cheerful, mind your business.

And yet, all that’s happened to me this year is nothing compared to what so many have faced. Our country is in rough shape right now. People are losing jobs, losing loved ones, losing their very lives. People can’t afford to feed their families. People are afraid.

Joy to the world, indeed.

I swear, it feels like I’m singing carols and decorating my house while the world burns down around me. You might feel the same way. But here we are. The snow is falling, the calendars have just one page, and whether we’re ready or not, the holiday season is here. So, how do we handle it?

Don’t feel guilty

Do you enjoy the holidays? Great! Do all the holiday things you can. Watch all the movies. Listen to all the music. Wear the obnoxious sweaters. Post a million pictures of your decorations, food, and pets in silly costumes.

Please, post pets in silly costumes and tag me on Instagram. I want to see.

Don’t feel guilty about this. Yes, people are suffering right now. Yes, it can feel almost ghoulish to enjoy food and fun while people are not eating on the regular. But I want you to keep three things in mind.

One: depriving yourself of joy will not give joy to others. It will just mean there’s less joy in the world.

Two, you didn’t cause the suffering of others. I know, I feel guilty too. But we didn’t cause the exorbitant grocery prices. We didn’t ask ICE to kidnap our neighbors and family. We didn’t fire hundreds of government employees. None of us wants this to happen.

(Unless you voted for the current president, then you are absolutely at fault, and I hope you have the holiday you voted for.)

And three, while other people are struggling right now, you’re probably suffering too! You could probably use a little holiday cheer. If a peppermint mocha latte and a stroll through the Christmas lights feels like self-care to you, go do it!

Try to do good where you can

It’s always a good time to help others. But right now it might be needed more than ever. And it’s insanely convenient this time of year.

If you can, donate to food banks. Get something for Toys for Tots. Donate old clothes, toys, whatever you need.

If you haven’t got the extra money, that’s totally understandable. Is there a way you can donate your time? If not to an organization, maybe just in your neighborhood? Can you shovel a neighbor’s walk? Can you double a recipe and take some food over? What can you do to make someone’s day a little bit better?

We’re all in this together. We should do what we can to help.

Pivot!

For all the reasons we’ve already talked about, and a whole bunch more I don’t want to go into, you might not be able to do some of your holiday traditions this year.

Trust me, I’m right there with you.

It’s important right now to be flexible. And I get that the holidays are the time when details matter the most. The exact chocolates, the matching pjs from the same company, the specific trip to the specific store. With the specific person, of course.

Let me start by acknowledging that this is painful. Even if it seems silly, our traditions are traditions for a reason. One of the main reasons why the holidays are so important to us is that they’re so nostalgic. We cook the same things our parents made. We wear the same sorts of things as when we were little. We watch the same movies or TV shows that we watch every year. We read the same books we read every year. A disruption of that feels devastating.

But if we let ourselves get hung up on these details, we lose all chance of joy. And a little joy is nothing to take lightly.

I hope that your holiday season is full of rest, good food, and lots of books. I hope you get to spend it with someone you like. And I hope to see you around here again next week.

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Eleven years together

I’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure out what I want to say today. On the one hand, it’s a great day. Paper Beats World has been around for eleven years. That’s longer than Stephen Colbert’s been hosting The Late Show. (If you wonder how I feel about him getting cancelled, go watch John Stewart’s response. That about sums up my feelings.)

I’ve written at least three posts a month for eleven years. And that’s an accomplishment. I should be proud. I should be grateful. I should be celebrating.

I am grateful. I can’t believe I’ve found a community of people who want to talk about writing with me. I can’t believe I’ve been yapping away here about writing and reading for this long, and you’re still here.

Thank you for that. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

All that being said, this has been a hard year. It’s been a living nightmare. As many of you already know, my husband had a stroke in December. And he is getting better. He’s healing. But it’s been a long journey, and there are still so many challenges ahead of us.

This is to say nothing of the challenges we’re facing as Americans. Like the startling rise of fascism, poverty rising, and the ever-present threat of shootings in places that should be sacred.

Are we feeling great again, yet?

All of this is to say that 2025 has been another hard year in a series of hard fucking years. And through all of it, a couple of things have kept me going. Animals on Instagram, the loving support of my friends and family, and art.

Art has kept me alive. Has given me reasons to smile. Has helped heal my husband’s broken brain. Has given us something to bond over together.

Let’s start with music. I have experienced so many new good songs this year. Some that inspire me to dance. Some to sing along at the top of my lungs. Some that remind me that I’m not crazy to be angry. I’m not alone in being angry. I’m not alone in being scared.

You can listen to my ever-changing playlist here if you want. Or, just look at my weird music taste and laugh about it.

Then, of course, there have been books. So many new books by authors I love have come out. Witchcraft for Wayward Girls, The Bewitching, Sunrise on the Reaping, Never Flinch, and most recently Dead Husband Cookbook. These were all fantastic books that brought so much joy into my life.

I’ve discovered new authors, like Marcus Kliewer and Josh Malerman. And I’ve read some older books I’ve never gotten around to, like Horrorstor and Long Quiet Highway.

Books have even helped my husband. We’ve been reading one of his favorites, Out of This Furnace, together. And I can see his speech improving every day.

Stories are once again saving me.

So I’ll stick around. I’ll keep writing. It might be slower than before. I might not always post on Friday at six in the morning. But I’m going to keep trying. Because in this ever-darkening world, we need all the light we can get. And all of you, coming here every week to hopefully get a smile or some good advice from me, you’re one thing that brings a hell of a lot of light into my life.

There are better days ahead. Stay tuned with me.

The story remains

Please indulge me in a moment of nostalgia today. It’s a very special anniversary.

Eleven years ago today, I started writing Woven. After years of feeling stuck in my writing. Years of starting projects but never finishing. Years of shrugging and saying I was a writer, but never really writing. I took expensive bread from a coffee shop that isn’t there anymore to a park that still is. I fed the birds and prayed for a book idea that wouldn’t die before its first real breath.

A spell is just a prayer with extra steps. I believe this was the most successful spell I’ve ever cast.

Eleven years have passed. I have moved homes three times. (And am getting ready to move again, God help me.) The walls and roof that surround me have changed. The desk at which I sit, sipping copious cups of coffee and tea, has changed. I’ve written at a desk older than me, painted over countless times. I’ve written at coffee shops, laundromats, doctor’s offices, libraries and day jobs. I’ve written at a desk my husband made for me by hand. It’s actually the first piece of furniture I’ve ever owned that wasn’t second-hand, and that’s where I’m still writing right now.

The story has remained.

I’ve changed jobs then job titles. I’ve changed my last name.

My family has changed. It shrank, but then swelled again. I lost people I never thought I’d lose. Never thought I could survive losing.

I’ve found new people. A new family, a new place in the world to need others and be needed in.

The story has remained.

I’ve written other stories. Some published, some not. Some tucked away for ‘someday’. Every one of them owes their existence to Woven. Because if it wasn’t for the story about a boy who weaves visions and a girl who spins light, I never would have had the courage or knowledge to write anything else.

I stepped out of my twenties and into my thirties. Soon, I’ll move into my forties. My hair has started to show silver. My back hurts in fun new places.

And yet, this story remains.

I became a horror critic. Then the site folded. Woven was bought by a publisher and then dropped. I republished it. Then I published it wide, a thing I wouldn’t have been able to do if the publisher hadn’t dropped us.

The story, through it all, remains.

We’ve lived through a pandemic and at least two recessions. At least some of us have. We’ve seen wars start and start. And start. We’ve seen three presidents. Well, two presidents and one threat to our country.

The story, though, remains.

And at this point, I feel like I’m ending a long journey. With Falling From Grace going wide this Friday, I’ve done almost everything I can do with it until I can afford to make it an audiobook. (I’m working on it.) Unless I write another book in the same world, the story of Woven is at its inevitable end.

Except, of course, that there are new readers in the world every day. New people looking for new stories. And I don’t think that’s likely to change anytime soon.

So this story will remain. I’ll write others. I’ll share others. And we’ll all keep right on changing.

I am so glad you’re here to share the journey with me.

Falling From Grace is going wide on Friday!

Why Never Flinch Works

I recently finished reading Stephen King’s latest novel, Never Flinch. And it was a fun book. I mean, most of King’s books are fun. But this one was especially so.

Never Flinch is about a serial killer, a religious bigot, a political activist and a soul singer. And about how all of these people come together in a gloriously bloody mess.

Now, I will say that I think the ending was a bit anticlimactic. I think the end game could have been a little cooler. I don’t want to ruin it for you, but you’ll know what I’m talking about if you’ve read it. However, it wasn’t bad enough that it ruined the journey for me.

Today, let’s talk about why Never Flinch worked. Let’s pick it apart and see exactly why it was a great, light Summer read.

The story gave away a lot, only to have more secrets to reveal

Never Flinch is, like most of the Holly books, not a horror novel. It’s a crime novel. Yes, there’s a touch of supernatural right at the end. But for the most part, this book was firmly planted in reality.

In most crime and mystery novels, the fun is largely derived from figuring out ‘who dunnit’. I think we’re all trying to recapture the childhood joy of reading Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys, feeling quite clever when we figure out who the bad guy is along with the teenage sleuths.

So when the book opens up with a chapter from the pov of the killer, you might think this takes away a bit of the fun. But it doesn’t. Mostly because we know him by the name Trig, but we’re told early on that this isn’t his legal name. So while we know him, we don’t know his public persona. He might walk past our main characters, even have full-on conversations with them, and we’d never know.

This does happen several times, by the way.

Lots of real-world horrors baked in here

While I love a good haunting story, there’s something great about real-world horrors. Horror is, I think, smarter than critics give it credit for. Through horror, we often talk about the things that really scare us. Not the ghosts and eldritch monsters. But the real things that keep us up at night.

Never Flinch is great at this. This book talks about guilt. About the weight a false conviction can have, and how that can impact so many people. It also talks about the fear of standing up for what you believe in and the price you have to pay to do that.

We see Trig, eaten up by the death of a man who should never be in jail. We see Corrie, putting her life on the line to support Kate and spread the message of feminine power. (Hell yes, by the way. Get me a Kate McKay Woman Power shirt!) We see Kate willingly risk her life to keep spreading this good work. And we see, in a darker turn, siblings Chris and Chrissy sacrifice their lives to shut her up.

All of these are real things we are really scared of. My favorite example is Holly. Holly faces her fears in this book. She steps out of her comfort zone over and over. She is not the sort of person you’d expect to be a bodyguard. She is learning that she can do hard things. She steps out of her comfort zone, and she is still not smoking.

Holly’s my hero.

I like the way King writes women.

This brings me to my next point. I love the way King writes women in this book.

The short reason for this is that he writes them like real people. Our two main characters are women. The majority of characters are women. And never once does anyone ‘breast boobily down the stairs’.

King writes women like people. What an amazing thing. Not one of them is perfect. There are no scream queens. They do dumb, selfish things. But they also do amazing and brave things. They do dumb things, too. And great things. They are messy, ego-driven, protective, kind, cruel. They are, in short, actual people.

Well done.

One of the antagonists is sympathetic

While I certainly don’t agree with Trig or his motivations, I do feel sympathy for him. He saw something wrong, very wrong, happen. He felt guilty. And he wanted to do something to balance the scales. He wanted people to learn from this.

He was wrong and messed up. He reminded me of a meme currently going around Instagram. You’ve probably seen it. A video starts ‘Probably needed therapy, did (insert thing) instead’. The thing might be making jewelry, or adopting cats, or starting a farm. In Trig’s case, he probably needed therapy and started killing innocent people instead.

But he’s so broken. He’s so scared and sad and ill. It’s impossible not to feel a little bad for him.

We’ve had so much time to know Holly

Finally, I want to talk about Holly. Because I love her. And we’ve had so much time to get to know her.

She was introduced in the Mr. Mercedes series, scared of everything, and a hot mess. We saw her blossom in The Outsider. Then, in If It Bleeds. Finally, she got her starring role in Holly. And now she’s back.

I hope King keeps writing about Holly. It’s so nice to see a main character be a middle-aged woman with severe anxiety issues.

Gee, wonder why I like that.

In short, Never Flinch isn’t going to be my favorite book of all time. It isn’t even my favorite King book. But it’s a fun book. It’s funny, dark, and inspiring. And we as writers can certainly learn a lot about writing through reading it.

Do you have a book or movie you want me to talk about? Did you read Never Flinch and have thoughts? Let us know in the comments.

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Falling From Grace is Going Wide

And now, we’ve come to this. It’s been years in the making. Over a decade, actually.

The Woven trilogy is now available wide. You can get it anywhere you buy ebooks. And as of July 25th, Falling From Grace will be too.

When Grace’s brother in law leads an army to overthrow their mad king, she inspires the women of their village to become healers, witches and warriors. But once she gets Calvin on the throne, her world only becomes darker.

Given all of the power of the crown, Calvin gives into his darker instincts. While Grace learns to be a witch and queen, Calvin slowly loses his mind. He becomes a crueler king than any the country of Calistar has ever seen. Grace finds that her greatest challenge is overthrowing the king she put on the throne.

This book was so much fun to write. Grace is witty, sarcastic, pissy. Everything my other main characters were not. I honestly might write more about her just because she was so much fun. I can’t wait for you to meet her.

Click here to check all the places you’ll be able to get Falling From Grace.

Starting Chains, Chapter One

Part One

Prologue

You think you know anger, you silly thing. You think you understand fury, betrayal. It’s hilarious when you little nothings think you have an understanding of those emotions.

Your hero failed you, didn’t he? The Great Calvin, who everyone thought would be the champion for the common man. They all fail, after a while. Heroes are just people, after all, and people fail. Certainly, your hero failed me. The greatest fault of the males of your species is always your obsession with the females.

But it is not as though he was important. Not so important that he cannot be replaced by a hundred others. After all, you’re hearing me now.

Your new hero will arrive soon, and he will fail you, too. The difference is, this time you will know my rage. Soon, you will learn the true meaning of anger.

And while you take care of the shining one, the precious little vessel, I can deal with other matters. My blood waits in the rip of the land. It only needs a drop of blood to awaken, and I’m sure it will get it. There is always blood when two neighbors fight over history.

Chapter One

Victor paced the floor of the game room, a low growl barely contained in his throat. Everything about the room, from the soft backed chairs to the heavy curtains and the thick wooden tables irritated him right then. Including every single other man in it.

Lord Lewis, Victor’s uncle by marriage, and his son Howard played pool. They were knocking the balls together louder than he thought was really necessary. Every now and then Lewis would look up at Victor and chuckle. He was a broad man, with gray hair and a paunch he hadn’t had in his youth. Howard looked much like him, but with darker hair and no paunch to speak of yet.

“First time jitters,” Lewis said finally. “I was just the same when my twins were born.”

Oliver sat on the couch by the fire with Lord James. “Sit down, Victor,” he said. “The king will be back in a moment to tell us how it’s going.”

Oliver was, in Victor’s opinion, too good looking for a man. His hair got far too much attention; his perfect face was in need of roughening. The only thing that redeemed him was the kindness in his eyes.

Lord James chuckled, flipping through the pages of a book. He was the only other man besides Victor in the room with light hair, a sign of their shared Montelarian heritage. But where Victor was tall and broad, James was a thin man. “It’s hard for you to be away from her right now, isn’t it?” James asked.

“It is not right,” Victor snapped. “I should be with her, she needs me.”

“That’s just where you shouldn’t be,” Lewis said, pointing his pool cue at him. “You have no more place in a birthing chamber than Lenore would have on a battle field.”

Victor thought of his wife and how she’d looked on the battle field, digging her dagger into the back of the neck of the man who’d killed her brother. He thought she’d done just fine.
“That is the way things are done in Montelair,” Victor said. “My da was with my ma when she had us.”

Howard set a hand on his shoulder. “You know you shouldn’t talk like that,” he said. “The people of Septa are having a hard enough time accepting a Montelarian so close to the throne. If we can’t let you wear your furred boots in public, we can’t let you follow Montelarian birth customs.”

Victor glanced down at his high polished boots. As far as he could tell, their only benefit was to match his black silk pants and Septan blue jacket. “Don’t remind me; they pinch,” he muttered.

“Victor, we all know how hard it’s been, getting used to Septa customs. But Montelair has been our enemy for so long. You can see why it’s been necessary, can’t you?” Oliver asked.

“You would think killing my brother would be enough to prove my loyalty to the Mestonie family,” Victor said, “Maybe even give me enough leeway to actually take care of my wife the way I think she should be taken care of!”

There was a scream from the other wing of the palace. Victor recognized Lenore’s voice. He started towards the door, but it opened before he could reach it.

King Samuel, his father in law, stood there. He was one of the few men in the palace big enough to look Victor in the eye. His hair was thick, with a steady streak of gray coming from both of his temples.

“Where are you going?” he asked with a smile.

“Lenore is screaming,” Victor said.

“She’s in pain,” Samuel replied, “Women suffer to bring our children into the world, and we should never forget that.”

“Did they let you in to see her?” Victor asked.

“No, of course not,” Samuel said with a chuckle. “But Lorna spoke to me in the outer chamber and told me that all is going as well as can be expected.”

“Lenore’s got two midwives, Lorna and her auntie Heather,” Lewis said, naming his wife. “She is well supported.”

“Ramona and Tabitha are with her, too,” James said. James was common born, too. He knew the presence of Lenore’s own nurse and maid would be more of a comfort to Victor than a noble aunt neither of them was fond of.

Samuel sat down at a table that supported a chess set. “Come and have a game. It will make the time go faster,” he said.

Victor thought this unlikely, but to please Samuel he took a seat. But for the gray in his hair, Samuel looked just like he had the night they met. Victor had been so afraid that night, desperately trying to stop his mad brother from murdering Lenore and her family. He hadn’t expected to survive, let alone be given a job. Nearly three years had passed, and now he was the husband of the princess who would someday be queen.

“I remember when Lenore was born,” Samuel said, setting up the chess pieces. “It was the first time I ever heard Lorna raise her voice.”

“Not much like Lenore then,” Howard answered with a grin.

The men laughed, but over their laughter Victor could hear Lenore’s voice. It didn’t sound like just a scream this time.

“Is she calling for me?” he asked.

Samuel’s cheeks turned red. “No, you’re hearing things,” he said. But the scream came again, and this time it was clearer. “Victor!”

He was out of his seat and to the door before anyone else in the room had time to react. As he ran through the halls of the palace, no one dared stop him. The other noblemen didn’t even bother to follow.

Lenore’s new body guard, Anthony, was standing in front of the door to the entry chamber. A tall, lanky man with a long tail of hair, he looked as bored as ever. He saw Victor coming and moved aside.

“Thanks,” Victor said.

“Queen Mother is only going to throw you out anyway,” Anthony replied.

Howard’s twin sister Harper sat in the chamber with Lady Hannah. They were Lenore’s ladies of court and closest noble friends. Harper was a tall woman, thinner than her brother. Hannah was shorter, with a broad, soft build.

Lenore’s hound, Shepard, was lying in front of the door to the birthing chamber, looking forlorn. She, like Victor, was unaccustomed to being away from Lenore this long.

Both women jumped when he burst into the room. “What are you doing? I nearly put my needle through my finger,” Harper cried.

“Was Lenore calling for me?” he asked.

“She was,” Hannah said with a nod. Unlike the rest of court, she had not yet removed the black mourning cloths for Prince Octavian. “But I don’t think the queen will let you go in.”

“Don’t you tell me what I want!” Lenore screamed. “Victor promised me he would be here, and I want him here now, not later when I’m all fancied up!”

“Are you entirely sure you want to go in there?” Harper asked.

“Of course. She won’t yell at me like that.” He opened the door to the birth chamber while Harper snorted.

The room was large and circular. In the center of the room was a bed on which Lenore sat, her nightgown pulled up around her waist. Her long, curly hair was pulled back in a messy braid, and her face was covered in sweat. A midwife knelt in front of her, hands between her legs. Queen Lorna stood between two waiting bassinets, looking tired.

“What in The Creator’s name took you so long?” Lenore cried.

“I am sorry,” he said, coming to her side.

“Oh, no,” Lorna stopped him with a raised hand. “You’re not staying, not with her in this state.”

“Mother, shut up!” Lenore cried. “He put the babies in there, he’s seen it. And if anyone makes him leave I’m going to make them as miserable as me!”

Ramona and Tabitha glanced at each other. “No, that’s all right,” Tabitha said.

“He’s not bothering me,” Ramona added. “Make yourself useful, boy.” She handed him a clean cloth and pointed towards a bucket of iced water.

Victor took off his jacket and dipped the cloth in the water. He sat down behind Lenore on the bed so that she could lean against him and set the cloth to her cheek. “Your uncle said to me that I had no more place in this room than you would have on a battlefield,” he chuckled.

“Then you should do fine,” Lenore replied, tensing with pain.

“He must not remember the last time Montelair attacked,” Victor said. He washed her face. “We’re changing all the rules, aren’t we, my girl?”

Lorna sniffed, but brought a fresh towel to the bed. “I suppose the next thing will be that you want me to teach you how to run the bloody palace,” she muttered.

“I’d be honored, if you have the time,” he said. When Lorna gave him a sharp look he shrugged. “My old job is taken. I cannot be idle while my wife works.”

Lenore screamed, and pressed against him. He put his arm around her. “Deep breaths,” the midwife said. “In, hold, out.”

Lenore breathed for a few minutes. When the pain subsided, she said, “I wish Devon could have stayed to meet the girls. And Octavian, they’ll never even get to meet him.”

“Octavian will watch over our girls like a guardian angel,” Ramona said. “And I’m sure Devon and Sultiana will visit soon.”

“We haven’t thought of any names yet,” Victor said, trying to change the subject.

“You pick,” Lenore said.

“You can’t give them Montelarian names,” Lorna said.

“Hush, Lady Mother, you are upsetting my wife,” Victor replied.

Hours passed. Lenore’s pain grew worse. Victor started to get worried. He brushed stray bits of hair from her face. “Tabby, will you come and fix her braid?” he asked, thinking that getting her hair out of her face would be some relief.

Tabitha nodded. She brushed Lenore’s hair and set it in a neat plait while she napped between bouts of pain. “One of the many benefits of being sapphic,” she whispered. “Girls don’t get other girls pregnant.”

“Does it normally take this long? The midwife would know if there was something wrong, wouldn’t she?” Victor asked.

Tabitha gave him a smile. “Yes, she would know. She’s the best midwife in the country.”

The midwife in question moved Lenore’s knees apart, and said, “Don’t you fuss about me. The princess has only been in labor for six hours. Many women take days to bring their children into the world. They will come when they’re ready and be cared for like every other baby born in this palace.”

“My heir, the first girl ever to be born heir to the throne,” Lenore said with a smile. Then, she drifted back into a light doze.

Lorna shook her head. “You should talk her out of that, you know. It’s one thing for Lenore to rule, Octavian chose her. But your daughter doesn’t have to.”

Victor raised an eyebrow at her.

“I’m only thinking of the baby,” Lorna said, “Lenore’s life is going to be hard. Don’t you want something better for your daughter?”

“My Lady Mother, how about you suggest to Lenore that her daughter not inherit?” Victor asked.

Lorna sighed. “I only want what’s best for you all.”

Lenore was stirring, moaning in pain again. The midwife looked between her legs, and said, “She’s crowning.”

“Are you ready?” Ramona asked.

“I’d better be,” Lenore replied.

“Push!” said the midwife.

Lenore pushed. Victor held her close and whispered, “You are so strong, so brave.” Lenore screamed, and soon her screams were joined by those of her daughter.

The midwife pulled the baby girl out and held her up. “Look at that blond hair,” she exclaimed.

Victor looked at his daughter, aching to hold her. But there was another baby coming, so Ramona took the first born to clean her.

Lenore was screaming again, and another ten minutes of pain followed. Finally, the second daughter, tiny and dark haired, came into the world.

“Our girls,” Lenore murmured.

The midwives hurried to get Lenore cleaned up and in a second waiting bed.

Ramona and Lorna brought the babies to the bed. They placed the girls into Lenore’s arms, and she set them to her breasts for their first meals.

“I’m so tired I don’t know if I can hold them,” she whispered.

“I’ll help,” Victor said, placing his arms under hers, supporting them all.

“What do you want to name them?” she asked.

Victor smiled. “The one with the golden hair, we’ll call Eleanor, for you my love. And the dark haired one can be Loralie.”

“To match,” Lenore said. “That’s good. Eleanor will need her sister. She’ll need all the help she can get.”

Lenore fell asleep, and Victor held his little family close. There were so many dangers waiting outside of those doors, he thought. The people in Septa who didn’t want a ruling queen, much less one with a Montelarian husband. A bitter Montelair, full of men furious at how the war had ended, hung over their heads as well.

“Other das just have to worry about scraped knees and boys,” he whispered. He looked up at Tabitha, who sat nearby. “These girls have inherited all of our enemies.”

Tabitha gave him a sleepy grin. “Good thing they’ve inherited all of your friends, too,” she replied.

Lorna wiped tears from her face. For the first time ever, Victor felt close to the cold woman. “You should take Eleanor out to see her people,” she said.

“Just her?” Victor asked. “Won’t the people want to see both of them?”

“She is the heir. She will always be the people’s first priority,” Lorna said.

“She’s sure to curse us for that one day,” Victor said. Nevertheless, he took his daughter with care, and carried her to the balcony attached to the birthing chamber to see her people.

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Let’s talk about spicy content

Spicy books have been having a moment on social media right now. And if you don’t know what I mean by that, ask your parent.

It’s been everywhere. People talk about the spice level of books, comparing scenes, and giving suggestions based on how much of that sort of content is in there. And all I can say about it is that I’m glad people are having fun.

Readers of my books will notice that spice isn’t something I include. This is for several reasons. One, I don’t enjoy romantic stories. I might enjoy a romantic subplot, especially in fantasy. There are certainly a few in Woven. But by and large, I am not here for the lovey stuff. I’m here for the dragons, spaceships and ghosts. I want a haunted house, not a house of love.

One exception to this is Laini Taylor’s Strange The Dreamer series. That was largely fantasy but with a really strong romantic subplot and I ate up every word. And of course, there’s a love triangle in Hunger Games. But these are exceptions.

I think in my career, I’ve written one spicy scene. And the point was not to be sexy or hot. It was to have a terrifying and visceral reaction from any male reader. If you read Nova, you know exactly what scene I’m talking about.

Sorry, guys.

The point is, spicy content isn’t my thing. That’s fine. A lot of readers do like it, which is also fine.

What I want to talk about today is not this ‘sudden increase in spicy books’. It’s how some people are reacting to it. Because while I don’t enjoy it myself, I will be damned if I’m going to let anyone feel bad for reading it.

Adult content is for adults. It’s okay to be an adult.

I have always hated the argument that censorship protects children. First of all, because it doesn’t. Secondly, we can protect children without expecting all of us to adhere to puritanical standards.

Most of the people reading spicy books are, after all, not children. They are adults, enjoying an adult story. The same can be said for the horror content that I enjoy. And that’s alright. Healthy, even.

We should let kids be kids. But we should also let adults be adults and make their own decisions about the type of content they want to experience. Being an adult is freaking hard enough. If I’m going to have to pay bills, keep my house clean and go to work, let me enjoy a book where people have pins pushed through their eyes by a demonic doll. (Shout out in the comments if you know what book I’m talking about.)

There are places and times where adult content is perfectly fine. Stop telling people it’s something to be ashamed of.

Spicy content in books is nothing new

Something that amuses me about this recent moral panic is the suggestion that spicy books are something new.

My dude, have you never read Shakespeare?

There has been spicy content for as long as there has been content. The first printed book might have been the Guttenberg bible. But I bet the second was a detailed sexual romp romcom. All of us millennials found at least one bodice ripper sitting on our mom’s bedside table from time to time.

This is nothing new, and society has gotten along just fine with its existence forever. We aren’t going to see a rise in sexual deviancy because of Sarah J. Maas.

Any form of censorship is a no from me

I am not down for telling people what they can or cannot read. Especially once they’ve reached the age of adulthood. Especially during a time when fascism seems to be making a comeback. Because morality is a sliding scale. What one person finds perfectly vanilla, another considers criminal.

And, of course, we cannot talk about this without talking about the LGBTQ+ community. Because for some reason, any romantic act from a same-sex couple seems to count double in the eyes of censors. A kiss between two women is treated with more outrage than a handjob by a straight couple. Often a gay couple simply existing is enough for something to be marked as adult content.

Censorship grows like a weed. Don’t let it get its roots in.

I’m a little sick of anything popular with women being demonized

Something I’ve noticed about people speaking against spicy content is that they all seem to be focused on the ladies’ reading habits.

Funny, no one is complaining about men playing sexually suggestive video games.

It seems like anything women enjoy is seen, by some, as rather frivolous. Rather silly. Starbucks, Ugg boots, that sort of thing. It’s a silly little thing that silly women enjoy, but serious people (men) don’t have time for.

And that’s not okay. Just because something is popular doesn’t mean that it’s somehow foolish or that the people who enjoy that thing are somehow less than the people who don’t. This never seems to happen with things men enjoy. Have you ever heard of a football fan called Basic? So let’s maybe consider this before we start making fun of the girls for their little hobbies.

Reading books is the damned goal.

Finally, I’d like to remind everyone that I want people to read books. I don’t care what sort of books they read.

Reading is supposed to be fun. It’s not supposed to be this very serious thing. It’s not another task to check off our neverending list of things we’re supposed to do. It’s fun. And if a spicy book is the one that makes someone realize that reading is fun, that’s awesome.

Once someone’s a reader, they’re going to keep on reading. When people stop seeing reading as something you’re forced to do, then judged by how well you understood the material, it’s a good thing. I want more people to read for pleasure. Even if it starts as reading for that specific sort of pleasure.

I guess what I’m saying is this. Don’t judge other people for what they read. Leave them alone, let them enjoy life. You don’t have to understand it or approve of it. And if the people on social media gushing about spicy books bother you, maybe you’re spending too much time on social media and need to go read a book yourself.

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How can we help?

Hey, how are you doing? I’m willing to bet the answer is not great.

To say that my heart is breaking feels like an understatement. It feels too heavy for that. I’m scared, furious, and desperately looking for hope in my overall day.

I’m worried about feeding my family. Worried that the food I feed them won’t be safe. Worried that our medical expenses, already high, will get worse. Worried that our rent will become too expensive. Hell, I’m a little worried my rights to have my bank account and a job will be compromised. Or, you know, travel across state lines without a negative pregnancy test.

I’m also, honestly, scared as a witch. The new VP seems to believe in witchcraft, and not be a fan of it. And frankly, I don’t want Captain Couch Gagger to decide he wants to be the Witchfinder General.

And yet, I know that I’m also extremely privileged. I am white. I am in a long-term cisgender marriage. I’m 38, and not really in danger of an unplanned pregnancy. I’m probably not going to lose my job or my home. (Of course, I might look back at this post ruefully at some point.) And like a lot of people, I’m wondering what I can do to help others. What can we all do to help each other get through the next four years?

Know your community

Your local community is your first line of defense, as you are theirs. So you need to know the people in your community. I’m really bad at this because I would much rather read my books than talk to people.

But when a neighbor got herself locked out of her apartment without her cell phone, I was able to help. Just as other neighbors have helped me.

I try to greet people when I’m sitting outside. Get on a first-name basis with the people who share my building. I have at least a passing hello relationship with the people who work at the shops I frequent. These are the real communities that have always saved us.

Know the facts

There’s a lot of misinformation coming at us daily. Unless you’re on Signal, apparently. And it’s going to come from all sides. Well-meaning people are going to share incorrect information without realizing it. Bad actors are going to spread lies. So bone up on your media literacy. Check where the information comes from. Check to see if anyone else is reporting it. Check that the person sharing this information doesn’t have something to gain from you believing this if it isn’t true. And when in doubt, don’t share it. Don’t spread it. Don’t engage with it.

Be heard

There are lots of ways to be heard right now. If your politicians are still showing up for town halls, those have been a great place to scream at them. But if they’re not doing those, because of all the screaming, you can still call, email, and send letters. If your politicians are doing things you don’t like, you don’t have to be quiet about it.

Make good art

If you’re here, I’m assuming you’re a creative-minded person. Probably a writer.

This is our time to shine.

If you feel so compelled, write about what you’re seeing. Write about the American citizens being deported. Write about the way families are struggling to feed themselves. Write about the attacks on LGBTQ+ youth. Write about how you feel, watching your country bully and brutalize other countries.

Most importantly, write about your experiences during these years. How are you doing right now? What are you experiencing? What are you seeing? How do you feel about it? Write it down, even if it’s just for you. Because while we’re all experiencing this together, no one is experiencing this in the same way you are.

Don’t let yourself get overwhelmed

This is an important thing to keep in mind. Yes, there is a lot to do. Yes, a lot is going on. But you have got to take care of yourself first.

You cannot give all your money away and then starve. You cannot work every single second you’re awake. You cannot consume news all day long. You will burn out.

So take breaks. Take whole days when you don’t look at the news. Take time for things that bring you joy. Take time to rest.

I am working very hard right now. There’s a reason this post is late. I’m caring for my husband. Managing my home, which is a series of tasks that don’t get talked about enough. I’m working a full-time job, and still trying to write.

And I am not so foolish as to think that I am the only person with a similar workload.

We need to take time for ourselves. Read a book, take a bath, do some yoga, take a walk. Maybe indulge responsibly in an adult beverage. I have a standing date with myself at a local wine bar. Once a week I go, have a glass of wine, and read my book. It is delightful. And I need that time to myself.

Donate and volunteer when you can

There are so many organizations that are going to need help as our government stops, well, helping. If you have time, consider volunteering. If you’ve got some extra money, donate to organizations that matter to you. I donate to the Pittsburgh Food Bank, The Brigid Alliance, The Trevor Project and Hello Bully. I also support several artists I admire on Patreon. Because God knows the arts are going to suffer through all of this.

The point is, we’re all in this together. We need to help where we can.

I hope this list has helped you feel a little less helpless. Because we’re not helpless. We’re not powerless.

We can do good things, one step at a time.

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An exciting announcement for Broken Patterns

Announcement time!

This took a little longer than I planned, for many reasons. I’m still caring for my husband, who had a stroke in December. February is hard for me emotionally. The news depresses me every day. And I forgot to uncheck a box on my Amazon listing. Such is the life of a writer in today’s world.

But today, I’m proud to announce that Broken Patterns is going wide on April 25th!

In Devon and Lenore’s world, magic is as common as turning a pot or fletching an arrow. What isn’t common is a man with thread magic. When Devon starts weaving prophetic tapestries, his royal family tries to keep it a secret.

But the family can’t stay in the shadows when Devon’s uncle is assassinated and he becomes second in line for the throne. Especially when he weaves a vision of destruction for the dragon lands.

This means that instead of being an Amazon exclusive, Broken Patterns will be available wherever you buy e-books. And over the next few months, the other books in the series will join her.

And yes, this is the third time Broken Patterns has had a launch day. So this is technically a relaunch of a relaunch.

Broken Patterns is always going to be an incredibly important book to me. It’s the first book I ever finished and published. And I think it’s a great story.

And this is the first time it’s been available outside of Amazon ever! I think it’s about time she was available to people who aren’t huge fans of the massive site.

So I hope that if you’ve always wanted to read Broken Patterns but didn’t have access to it, this allows you to grab it. I’m sure you’ll love meeting Devon, the boy who weaves visions, and Lenore, the girl who spins light.

What I’m reading, Spring 2025

Spring is here. And for once, I’m not mad at it. Winter was kind of long, kind of cold, kind of dark.

Kind of full of me helping my husband to heal from a stroke that had him out of the house in intense medical care for two months and even now has him debilitated, unable to move his right side or speak.

I’m done with Winter. And, it should surprise no one that I’m behind on my reading list for the month.

Like, real behind.

But the books I’ve read so far have left me with a deep passion to read more. Specifically, more horror. So today I’m sharing the books I plan to read this Spring. Hopefully, I can get them all in, because there are some great books here by some great authors.

As always, this is a jumbled collection in no particular order. You’ll find fiction and nonfiction. You’ll find old books and a few new releases. I am a writer, witch and horror content critic and all three of those elements of myself are on display with this reading list. Hopefully, you’ll find something on this list that will catch your fancy and make its way onto your own TBR.

Who Holds The Devil by Michael Dittman

This is the book I’m reading right now. But as I probably won’t finish it before the first day of Spring I feel alright listing it.

A tree brought down under mysterious circumstances on Halloween lets loose a horrible demon in the town of Butler. One that has been there before.

This one is fun for me because I’m from Butler. I’m sitting in Butler right now. But even if you’re not a native, it’s a damn good story.

HorrorStor by Grady Hendrix

Imagine a haunted house, but bigger. Much bigger. Like maybe a giant furniture store with funny-sounding names and demonic possessions. That’s HorrorStor.

Also, if you get a chance, this is a great book to listen to in audiobook form. It’s fun.

Fairy Herds and Mythscapes by Kerry E.B. Black

I have long said that fairies are not something to be trifled with. This collection seems to agree with me.

Incidents Around The House by John Malerman

The cover and the title caught my attention, and I couldn’t move away from it. I am a sucker for haunted houses.

By the way, I’ve never read Bird Box or seen it. If I like this one, I might check that one out. Should I? Let me know in the comments.

The Cabin at The End of The World by Paul Tremblay

If I’m being honest, I got this book from the library just because it was written by Tremblay, who also wrote Horror Movie. And that was one of the smartest books I’ve read in years. But the description of little Wen being menaced by a stranger just pulled me in. I cannot wait to read this.

The Spirit Collection of Thorn Hall by J. Ann Thomas

This feels from the description like a blend of Thirteen Ghosts and Haunting of Hill House. And I am here for it.

Sunrise on The Reaping by Suzanne Collins

Do I really need to explain why I want to read this? It’s the story of Haymitch, the drunk mentor/freedom fighter from the astounding Hunger Games series. I am currently 17 on the list for this book at my local library. I cannot wait to get my hands on it.

An Apostates Guide To Witchcraft by Moss Matthey

This is a book about growing from a toxic upbringing in a high-control religion and finding oneself in witchcraft. Gee, wonder why I want to read that.

Poetry As Spellcasting by Tamiko Beyer, Destiny Hemphill and Lisbeth White

Writing is magic. Poetry is doubly so. I’m sure this book has a lot to teach me about both.

City Witchery by Lisa Marie Basile

I’ve actually read this one before, but I feel like I need a refresher. Especially as Spring blooms and I’m going to get out into the city more. It’s easy to feel like a witch in the middle of the forest or sitting by the ocean. But in an apartment in the middle of Downtown? That’s magical too, just in a different way.

The Witching Year by Diana Helmuth

I’ve also read this one before. But it’s the sort of book that you need to read a few times to really soak it all in. It is the memoir of a modern woman who starts practicing witchcraft out of curiosity and finds a world of joy, empowerment and spiritual fulfillment.

If you’re thinking of witchcraft and wondering if it’s for you, read this book.

Sisters In Hate by Seyward Darby

I’ve been meaning to read this one for a while. It’s about the women of the alt-right, without which they wouldn’t be able to survive. They are the homemakers and cheerleaders of this dark movement. I want to understand them, so I can hopefully reach them. Maybe help them.

Writing on Empty by Natalie Goldberg

I’ve also been meaning to read this one for a while. It’s the memoir of one of my favorite writing teachers about her experience during the Covid lockdowns. While I was perfectly happy hunkering down at home, Goldberg is a traveler. I can only imagine how this impacted her. I want to see how she survived it.

Never Flinch by Stephen King

King wrote another Holly book. That’s all I need to know.

But it’s also about a serial killer, threatening to kill fourteen people if the police can’t stop them. Since we have some time before this book comes out, I highly suggest reading the other books Holly appears in. That would be the Mr. Mercedes trilogy, The Outsider and Holly. They’re all great.

Let The Whole Thundering World Come Home by Natalie Goldberg

Oh good, a book about chronic illness by Goldberg. That won’t feel very personal at all. This one might emotionally break me.

So now it’s your turn. What are you reading this Spring? Let us know in the comments.

Also, keep an eye out for Haunted MTL. There soon might be a brand new way to hear about the horror books I’m reading.

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