A few days later Grace woke alone in her bed with a feeling that she was late for something. There was a pressure, a certainty that she had a crucial, important thing to do, and that it must be done at once. She got out of bed in a flash, and pulled her clothes on. It took only moments to tug a tan dress over her shift and lace it up, but it seemed an eternity. Brushing out her hair and setting it in a bun to keep it out of her face took years. She brewed a cup of tea, and then sat down with a scrap of paper and a rough piece of charcoal to consider what she needed to do. What could weigh on her so desperately that she felt in such a rush?
She wrote down everything she could think of, everything that might need done. Clean the house, weed the garden, do the washing. It was a small enough list, but it seemed to press on her. With another quick sip of her tea, she headed to the river to collect a bucket of water and get started.
She was on her knees in the fireplace, scrubbing the soot away with a wire brush and heavy soap when she heard a gentle knock on her door. Grace winced as she got up, and opened the door to find Nikita standing there.
“Oh, you look a mess,” Nikita said. “What have you got soot all over you for?”
“I was scrubbing out the fireplace, what do you think?” Grace asked.
Nikita looked around the room, which had all been thoroughly scoured in the last few hours. “I was worried when I did not see you in the square. May and June said they had not seen you since supper last night.”
“I just needed to get some cleaning done before I came down,” Grace said. She ducked her wash rag into the water and started wiping away the soap. “It was such a mess, disgusting. What would Victor have thought if he had come home to that?”
Nikita shrugged. “Well, it looks fine now. Will you come back with me?”
“Suppose I should. The quiet cannot be good for me.”
“It is not good for me, either. I wonder, could I come and sleep here until the men get back? I would feel better if I was not alone at night.”
So she was not to have any peace, even in the evening.
“That would be fine,” Grace said. She used a dry cloth to wipe down her face and hands, then the front of her dress. “Come on, I guess.”
Nikita nodded, and all but pulled Grace to the square. June and May were there, busy with their needles. “There you are. What, were you sleeping in?” June asked.
“Oh, shut up,” Grace said. She had her own sewing to do, working over scraps from some old clothes for a blanket. She pulled her things out of her bag, taking a seat next to May. “Is Morgan off hunting again?”
“Yes,” June snorted. “For all the good it will do him.”
“He caught that nice pheasant the first day,” Grace said. “What happened to him?”
“Dunno, but Olga’s little boy has brought more game out of those woods than Morgan,” May sighed. “It is a shame, too. I would love to have some meat tonight.”
“He had better get himself together, in case Da-,” June began. She pursed her lips together and didn’t say anything more. Not as though she needed to.
May glance up from her work, as though to comfort her sister. But her face darkened. “What is she doing here?” she asked.
Grace followed her gaze and saw Yeva, creeping towards the collection of women. Traditionally, women and daughters of men who died didn’t come near the gathering in the square. It was a kindness, to keep away. To not remind women of the men lost before.
“She looks lost,” May said. “Should we invite her to sit with us?”
“I will leave if you do,” Grace said flatly.
“Be kind. She lost all of her family,” May said. “You know what that is like.”
Grace thought of Yulia, running from her house with Grace’s ma’s book. She thought of the silence, days later, when Grace had hammered on the door to beg for her book back. Yulia had forever acted as though the book had never belonged to Grace, as though her ma and grandma’s writing wasn’t on every page. “Aye, I do. And I earned a spot at someone else’s table, looking after you. She can find a way to be useful, or look after herself. A handout will just make her weak.”
“Grace, look,” Nikita said.
Outside of the circle of women and children stalked a thin man with thinner hair. He leered at the women, giving Grace a filthy smile when she looked his way.
“Yurick,” Grace muttered. “Can Timur not keep him under control?”
“He does this every mission, everyone knows he is too weak to be sent out himself,” June said.
“Worthless old fool,” Grace said.
“It is sick, what he is doing,” May hissed. “Sneaking about trying to get a woman alone while her man is gone. This is exactly why Morgan should have stayed here instead of going out to hunt.”
The day passed slowly. Once the sewing was done the girls weeded the garden and dug up some potatoes for supper. They went to the river and trapped a few fish, tiny things. Grace baked some bread, from her share of the flour that the men had gotten during their last raid. Nikita had some carrots. The food was cooking when Morgan returned, carrying a few dead squirrels by their tails.
“Well,” he grinned, holding up the animals. “Had better luck today.”
“Oh yes,” June crooned, looking over the animals. “That will be such a meal for five people.”
“You know what you are?” Morgan snapped, gesturing wildly with the dead squirrels still in his hand. “You are a thankless khu’i. I do not see you out there, trying to find anything to kill in those woods.”
“Um, excuse me, Grace?”
Yeva was standing near their cook fire. To Grace’s fury, she was holding her ma’s book in her hands.
“What do you want?” Grace asked.
“I, well I wondered if I could ask you a question. Lada gets these headaches, and she said my grandma used to make her a tea for them. Something stronger than willow bark, she said. But I cannot find the recipe anywhere. Do you have any idea what it might be, or where I might find it?”
“Why would you think I would tell you anything?” Grace asked. “You have the book, look it up yourself.”
“This book is too complicated for me. I mean, the medicine recipes are all intermixed with these strange symbols and I cannot make any sense of it. Besides, I am no healer. I only ever learned about midwifery,” Yeva said. “Grandma said you used to apprentice under her, I just thought-.”
“Your grandma was a dirty liar,” Grace said. “Now get away from here, you are not wanted. Go on, go home.”
“I need help. What is anyone going to do in this village if we have a healer who does not know what she is doing?” Yeva asked.
“I guess we will have to sort it out, since that is the situation we are in,” May replied.
Yeva turned away, her shoulders drooping. Grace felt her conscious pinch, but just for a moment. She wanted to snatch the book away from the girl, but what good would it do? She was no healer either.
***
Everyone dithered around the fires after supper. The women were hesitant to go home to empty beds. The children, unaccustomed to the mysteries and magic of the night, were just happy to be sitting around a fire and listening to stories from their mas and sisters. Thus it was late when the women started heading for their homes. Some carried little ones on their hips, others led sleepy ones too big to be carried anymore.
Grace, Nikita, Morgan and the girls left in a group. They were moving a little slow, acting a little silly. Morgan had a bottle of vodka, and they’d been passing the spirit around.
“Those wee little squirrels,” June laughed. “I suppose they were better than nothing with some potatoes, but they were so tiny!”
“A small animal is harder to catch than a bigger one,” Morgan said, shaking his finger at his sister.
“Then you should have spared yourself the trouble, and gotten bigger ones,” May chuckled.
“Oh, stop fussing at your brother,” Grace said. “He is trying, that is important. You keep right on hunting, Morgan, and you will get better someday.”
“The woods are half hunted out. That is what Boris says,” Nikita said.
“Da never fails to bring something home,” June responded, mulish.
“I am going to bed,” Morgan snapped and headed for the door. His hands were glowing blue. It wasn’t the shield magic of his uncle, or the destructive force his da had. It was just light. But on a dark night like that one, light was enough.
Morgan and the girls headed for their house, while Grace led Nikita to hers. “I will set a cot out in front of the fire for you,” Grace said. She shut the door, and secured it with the solid brace Victor had put in before he left. She tried not to think, before he left for good. It was just left, and he would be back. He had to come back.
Grace turned from the door, and nearly tripped over Nikita. She was frozen in place, staring at a shadow in the corner of the room.
Yurick emerged from the shadow, calmly. “It is about time you girls got home,” he said. He breathed deep, as though casting for their scents like a hunting hound. “I have been anxious, waiting for you.”
“You have no reason to be here, Yurick. Get gone,” Grace said, pushing Nikita behind her.
“Ah, but I do have a reason to be here,” Yurick said. He walked slowly towards them. “Nothing gets me harder than a woman with child.”
“Nikita, go,” Grace said, shoving the other woman toward the door. Nikita pulled the brace free, and ran. Yurick was at the door in a moment, slamming it shut behind her and trapping Grace in with him. He hit her, sending her sprawling on the ground next to the table.
“Are you so eager for a man?” he chortled, as Grace shook her head, trying to clear it. “Alright, then. I can have little Nikita later and you now.”
He fell on Grace, pulling up her skirts. Grace grabbed for the closest thing to her, a stool at the table. She hit Yurick hard in the side of the head, and shoved him off of her.
“You bitch!” he yelled, but Grace didn’t waste time. She brought the stool down on his head again, and again.
“Stop, stop it!” he cried. “I will leave, I will!”
“To do what, rape some other woman?” Grace snarled, and hit him again.
Just then the door slammed open. Morgan came in with a sword in his hand, June just behind him.
“Oh, Land and Sky,” Morgan snorted, looking at the puddle of Yurick on the floor. “You worthless old man, what did you think you were going to do?”
Grace stopped hitting him, allowing Morgan to grab the sobbing man by the back of his shirt. “Get out of here. I catch you sniffing around my aunt again and I will run your hide through.”
Morgan shoved him out of the house, laughing when Yurick stumbled and fell.
“Grace, are you alright?” June asked.
“He did not get what he wanted,” Grace said, setting the stool down with shaking hands. “I might have banged my head on the floor when he hit me, that is all.”
“Grace!” May called, running to the front door. “Grace, Nikita is going into labor!”
“What?” June gasped.
“She just collapsed on the floor as soon as Morgan and June ran out, and water started pouring out of her. What do we do?”
“There is no experienced midwife,” June said numbly. “What can we do for her?”
The three of them looked to Grace, as though she would have some sort of an answer. She had to have one.
“Damn it, someone go and fetch Yeva,” Grace said finally.
“She is a girl,” May said.
“She is an apprentice midwife, which is more than any of us,” Grace replied. “Go May. June, start boiling water. Let us get the new ma in a bed. Morgan come on.”
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